I think I have inconsistent personality. It's true in terms of work and hobby. I tend to be reluctant to do something if I feel bored. I seem to start looking for another thing when I feel my limitation in my talent and capability, or when I feel that the goal after I'm supposed to reach eventually doesn't seem attractive.

However, I've been continuing photography as a hobby. It was when I bought a used Nikon F2 Photomic A body with two used lenses (28mm and 105mm) that I became more serious about photography. After that, I transferred the Leica M5 as a memento of my uncle and became obsessed by the feeling of assimilating what's inside the frame with what I have in mind.

It's extremely hard to take a photography that exactly reflects what I feel at the site. The way to "the shot" continues forever and I can't even imagine what kind of goal it is. Maybe it's because of this mystery that I 'm still shooting. I've been far more selective in choosing my favorites than in the past. Is it because my reflex nerve has become too slow to capture the moments? Or, is it because my taste has changed? Or, am I raising my standard? Anyway, I'm still trying to improve while having fun.

My subjects are suburban nature, streets, buildings, people, etc. I should just about following my intuition. When I feel the scene is sweet, I aim my camera at it and try to condense the air inside the small frame without hesitation. And, I'm especially driven by the chance encounters with such scenes.

My day begins with an obscure perception of where I am by looking at the bright window seen between pleats of the curtain and I take a deep breath. At night I feel dull again and put my glasses on the night table while minding the mark of spider nets on the ceiling. Between such mornings and nights, I'm looking at something for quite a long time. Most of the time, my brain controls my point of view before I know it. However, when taking photography, my eyes sharpen their function as sensory organs and intentionally add sensuality to ordinary lives and nature. In such a state, I need to pick some taste or beauty playing with imagination, but they exist only in one point rather than the entire vision. So, I could overlook them unless I link my mind sensor with them.

Even photos take by professionals can be boring and dry if they include information that is unrelated to the main theme. And, that's why photography becomes interesting. How to crop scenes determines the theme. Arrangement is complete by deepening the story and adding effective melodies like movie soundtrack.

No matter how closely I look at the scene before my eyes in order to scoop up the emotional and meaningful moments, I hardly even come across the very moment. And, even though I do, then I should match the timing of shutter and that's hard, too. But, that's why it's worth trying.

It's been 25 years since I started living in the United States, I feel like I7m a foreign tourist because I still deeply miss my Japanese life and culture. Maybe this emotion drives my sensation to take photography and become lyrical. Even though I cannot take good photography, I feel happy just by holding my camera that lets me set the world in the frame.

Anyway, I hope to live gracefully by balancing things in my life.